My dream

I dream. I am a dreamer. Anyone close to me knows that. Or anyone reading my blog for that matter. One of my favorite things to picture in my head is my future house. HOME. I had a talk about this with someone special. What home actually means. It isn' t necessarily a place. Nothing you can touch. It is about a feeling someone can give you. Attachment, Peace, Happiness....
I still do have a bit of a materialist in me though. There are things that make all that magical feeling a person gives you seem right. For me its mix of materials. Anything that makes you feel warmer around your closest. That includes light. Well what if I just show you. I actually found this place that looks absolutely perfect. Space I can imagine myself all loved up with someone special.

How do you choose tho

I love fashion. Shocker right?! Yes I am trying to be funny and sarcastic. Welcome to random rumbles of Deni the DeniVev haha. No now seriously. One of my favorite parts of the day, except for the one where you finally go to bed, is dressing up to finally get out the house.

This might be surprising to some but I really dont spend all my day in gigantic hoodies with laptop in my lap and loud music on. Ay I said.. not ALL day, okay?

Cleanse your mind and help your body

Help your body or feel like you are about to pass out?! I go through both stages within 10 minutes of my, now pretty daily runs. It is obvious that in most cases it really is amazing for your body to run. Great work out. My reason why I started years ago is that it helps my head. I really do clear my mind.
The only thing i focus on is my breath. The regular -sometime worryingly irregular- sound of my own body. Nothing else. Keeping it all same. Giving myself new targets and goals to get to. And I do love seeing my daily progress.

I couldn' t do it without music though. I need something to keep me pumped up and going. Some good beat. It always changes. I think I have a new set of songs every week. Maybe even more often then that. Lately it was more of  London roadman kinda vibe. At least thats how I would try to classify it. Are you listening to something whilst running? Or are you one of those silent runners?

And a lot more and more songs. This is actually only a little pick from my todays playlist haha.

What do you think about running? Doesn' t it help a lot of problems? Or at least makes them feel smaller?
Until next time keep safe and live your life to the fullest

xoxo

DeniVev :* 

Be Positive. At least a bit.

I was cruising round with my boyfriend the other day. He pointed out something I didn' t really realize bout myself before. I have moments when I just giggle. A lot. I try being happy and positive so much. All the  time. Especially in situations that get a bit too serious to me. It is as if I had this safe system inside of me. A setting that goes into giggle mode the second I get anxious at certain situations.
Now I know I try to be positive. This is a characteristics a lot of people appreciate about me. Some of my friends know that in their stressful situations or any hard times, they need me around. To lighten the mood, make them feel positive, okay, like nothing big is happening. But looks like it does get out of control sometimes.

I realized that it is okay to be serious. It is alright to have a straight face. Not everyone needs cheering up. Sometimes people do need some space to stay in their grown up mode. The moment that gets me worried the most about people though is when I see them closing up. Keeping all those thoughts and problems inside. Not sharing or talking about them. I used to be that way. I kept everything for myself. Actually, I still do that most of the time. But I can make them look like a little tiny negative thing in a day. Instead of growing it in my brain. Making it look like the end of the world or overthinking.  It works. Usually. Of course there are things that get stuck in you. That is when even I have a straight face on. But usually you really do see me keeping the mood up. Smiley, happy and positive. On the outside anyways.
This is something I changed bout myself through 2016. I stopped caring bout some and started focusing on other. Making sure I always find something funny and good about situations. Suddenly the awkward moments seemed like nothing, the stressful things like exams or so became no problem or my anxieties became bearable and I am now able to get through them within few minutes. I just changed the angle I look at things. I try to keep positive and happy not only on the outside.
You don' t just see me giggle and laugh on the outside. It isn' t just my protective mechanism anymore. It is my mindset.

Problems have always been around. People will always annoy you. There will always be something that will try to hold you down or bring you there. It is just about you being you and staying true to it. Seeing things as they are but not making big things of them.
Try it and you will see that suddenly that guy you like will compliment on your smile. Your girls will be asking bout highlighter you use as you will shine like a star. Just please give it a go.

Let me know how it goes....

Until next time, keep safe and live your life to the fullest.

XoXo

DeniVev :*

Latest Hair Love

I am pretty proud bout the hair creations I do, but those who know me have pretty good idea of how critical I can be at the same time. I always find something I would change. Even if it is just a use of one more product at styling or different comb to do a haircut. Always something. I do know this is good, even my lecturer says this is how critical she is of her work. Still. After all the time.

Thats why whenever someone asks me bout my favorite hair I did or style I just pause. I love it all. I did still try to choose my TOP 5 I created this year (female hairstyles only this time).