The Merry and Bright

My favorite time of the year.
It is the hardest and most stressful build up that leads to a few days of joy, calm and love. Why do I get so worked up over the festive season? Because it is so worth it. Making myself extremely busy, just so I can take few days off and be with my family for Christmas. Spending all that time, figuring out the best presents for everyone, because it is so satisfying seeing their happy faces.
My family goes through a lot over the whole year. Work stuff, life stuff and all the other shit. For that reason it is very important for us to spend few days together to be thankful and stuffed with food.

This makes me feel like a child

Every year it comes down to this day. Christmas Eve. The only day, when I feel like that little excited girl, waiting for diner and presents. The moment I sit down by the tree I feel that same De Ja Vu of all the previous times, I have been at the same spot and all lovely memories, which tie to it. Obviously older I get I have slightly new meaning to this. 

As of this year, the presents, had least value to me. I mean I got some and they were all absolutely awesome. Couldn´t be any more grateful. But that wasn´t what I was looking forward to. I wanted to see smile on my families faces. Happines thanks to gifts I gave them and thought I have put into them. Being together- just the four of us, possibly for the last time. From now on things will probably change. Me and my sister, we grow and bring more members to our family now. So it will never be the same. I really wanted to feel this so familiar moment and cherish it.